Asking for healing, hoping in Him

I feel a little at a loss for words. I'm weary as I type this. My hands feel weak.

"Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:12

I know I've shared that verse already recently, but today....I need to be reminded once again...that I need not be surpised by these trials that test me, but REJOICE, it being a privilege to share in Christ's sufferings, which will make the day He is revealed ALL THE MORE SWEETER!!!

We took Keziah to the Dr today. The ENT was able to see a little more in her ear today - a large bloody mass, that completely covers the ear canal. They do not know what this mass is.

They are giving the drops till Monday to see if the mass will decrease in size. She has a surgery scheduled for Tuesday just in case the mass has not gotten smaller. They will take it out and biopsy it then.

The Lord was incredibly kind to me at the Dr's office. While we were in the back scheduling her surgery (it all seemd very surreal), a lady (somebody who worked in the office) walked by, and came in. She must've already walked by once, saw us, and then questioned about us. She walked in (I really felt like she was an angel from God). She stooped down to my level, looked me in the eyes, and said "I just heard that you adopted her, [gripped my arms], THANK YOU!" And she gave me a big hug. I pretty much lost it - sobbing....ya know....the ugly cry!

The worker who was scheduling Keziah's surgery told her what was going on. And she closed the door. The lady who had approached me, Zandra, immediately just started praying in tounges over Keziah. And the other lady was praying outloud for her. I don't know what your theology is on this (as you read this) - it doesn't really matter to me. It was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard in my life, I think! It was one of those intimate moments with the Lord where you just know He is near, He is holding you, He knows your heart, your fears, your desires, and He's holding you close saying "trust me, this is in my hands, I'm near to you, and I love you and Keziah". I was able to just cry with these ladies, and they prayed for several minutes over us. It was one of the most beautiful things I've ever experienced! I just know those things don't "just happen"....ESPECIALLY at your Dr's office! It was a gift from the Lord.

One of the things Zandra said to me was no racism, no tension, love covers all things......I was so thankful for those words, they blessed my heart! This was a scene of 2 African American woman, my African American baby girl, and white me.....the body of Christ busting through racial barriers seeking His face together! Praise the Lord!!! Thank you, Lord!!!

Will you please join us in praying for healing for Keziah? Our hearts are heavy and weary for our baby girl. We, obviously, just want this to go away....as any parent would. If we think too long - we get scared. We just want to hold her, cuddle her, never let go. But she's in the Lord's hands....much better hands than our own.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proer time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary teh devil prowls around liek a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knwing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To Him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.

1 Peter 5:6-12